yep,
flying roach discovery
frenzy, panic

shoe in hand
hits the landing pad
creates
new carcass

what time is it?

new jersey and DC
NYC and
philly
still in memory

a UFO sighting is
old hat
in the year…

but I’m in Houston now
way across town
a year now
been a year!

fill your life with more content content content so you have something to talk about talk about talk about.

more content
staring at a wall

I plan on listening
listening is pristine

more in-tune

in control
(not really in control)

why start spelling my
name correctly at this point
or even getting the pronunciation?

this guy yelling on his cell phone
hustling, you can tell
no one is that accommodating
without expecting something in it
for themselves

problem with work is
all the eyes on you
their judgments
so they wanna look…
I give them entertainment
give them something
to talk about
I can split off
into a 4-dimensional being
right in front of them
let it begin

this one’s
for the camera

new world

these are strange days—quiet, uncertain, waiting for the words to come. a writer dismantled. he retires after all the years of star treatment. he was lucky to fall in. an old lady was asked if she’s enjoying signing all the autographs. she’s liked it so much she reached a point where she started signing other people’s names. I wake up these mornings and take in a new world and spread new ink. new world says, “kind of you to see me as new… really, I’m all about constant change to which you must adjust or be thrown clear.”

but I’m experiencing new things, at least as a man in his thirties. I surprise myself, how far I’ve come. the future is unwritten, scary, uncertain, perhaps brittle. my present is pattered with meditation and readings of the psychedelic.

I can’t preach Scientism cause I don’t believe it. I can’t preach Buddhism cause I can’t understand it. The only thing I can preach is the felt presence of immediate experience which for me came through the psychedelics, which are not drugs but plants. It’s a perversion of language to try to derail this thing into talk of drugs. There are spirits in the natural world that come to us in this way and so far as I can tell this is the only way that they come to us that is rapid enough for it to have an impact upon us as a global population.

–Terence McKenna

to break away and be by one’s self is something that can truly be appreciated and comprehended when older, more mature, and weathered by various heartbreaks and setbacks. enter the thought lab. like you, right? ah, new world cutting in. the landscape. burned up city. ruination.

thought there’d
be a revolution
of meaning here
but that word
revolution got
itself all worn
out by advertising firms

you are one step
closer to being
back alone
all by yourself
again

this I
realize

feeling sorry
sorry for yourself?

feeling the
weight of things

the comedian tries to
make a go of
processing
catastrophic events

the joke
slips
out of

place

been dealt a bad hand?

maybe
maybe so

born and raised in
robot factories

coveted position
in the robot factory

distractions
in the robot factory

rejection
in the robot factory

all out of
robot oil

fired, swept under
carpet
who? who?
glad to be
rid of…
so n’ so
who?
forgot
I forget
oh I forget
forget it now
what’s it matter?
gone
GonegOneGoneG
on E

you like science?

heated
discussions

you should see
the room
we’re staying in

it’s falling
off
the back
of the house

landlords tend not
attention to
detail

two dobermans
got in this morning
and killed the
parakeets

we emptied out
all the ice cube trays

heated episodes
in speech

blow to the brow

dialed my friend
at the
wrong number
and
continued to
walk

all the little birds
were there
in the park

went in

inside the building
there were
meditation cushions

when I sat
in the first few minutes
tourist crowds
poured in
at my back
and I could
with my
closed eyes
sense they
were expecting
fireworks

it was in fact
a space
museum
of sorts

but you
have to
drop
ac i D
to
really
see it

all

tumble

well
the

Dogs

got in
when
I least

expected

screeching children

broke up my
counting

of each
breath

mindful
of
violence in life

these were
trained by military

to attack
society’s

edge of
rebellion

frays of
threat

to the
security

but why
attack
the children
first?

claBAMmm!

I disengaged
one of these
masterpieces
onto
a beast
and
managed

my way

you like science?

heated
discussions

you should see
the room
we’re staying in

it’s falling
off
the back
of the house

landlords tend not
attention to
detail

two dobermans
got in this morning
and killed the
parakeets

we emptied out
all the ice cube trays

heated episodes
in speech

blow to the brow

dialed my friend
at the
wrong number
and
continued to
walk

all the little birds
were there
in the park

went in

inside the building
there were
meditation cushions

when I sat
in the first few minutes
tourist crowds
poured in
at my back
and I could
with my
closed eyes
sense they
were expecting
fireworks

it was in fact
a space
museum
of sorts

but you
have to
drop
ac i D
to
really
see it

all

tumble

well
the

Dogs

got in
when
I least

expected

screeching children

broke up my
counting

of each
breath

mindful
of
violence in life

these were
trained by military

to attack
society’s

edge of
rebellion

frays of
threat

to the
security

but why
attack
the children
first?

claBAMmm!

I disengaged
one of these
masterpieces
onto
a beast
and
managed

my way